How am I livin’? How my phone sees my life.

I was contaminated this weekend, I accidentally devoured cautiously ate a roll with butter in it. I couldn’t help it, it was delicious. I knew as soon as I ate it and so did Mister, he just looked at me, shook his head and asked where the Epi-pen was. He has this look he gets in his eyes when he thinks he may get a chance to use an Epi-pen on me, it’s kind of scary. Luckily there was no need, I didn’t go into anaphylaxis,  so I just drank more wine and hoped for the best. This was Saturday, so Sunday I felt the worst of it. The low energy, the nausea and  headache, it was all there. Monday I felt the residual effects where my entire body hurts down to my joints and it’s uncomfortable to even move.

All from one little roll! My addiction to carbs overruled my common sense, that stupid delicious bread.

While glued to the couch Sunday I noticed that I have over 900 pictures on my phone, mostly of Gypsy of course.

Here are some from the last few weeks:

IMG_1710^These two were just trouble. Onyx belongs to our friends and we took care of him for a few days^

IMG_1713^She’s really not a morning person^

IMG_1715^I got to work here last Friday, go ahead, be jealous.^

IMG_1718^My first piece of Fiesta ware. It was on bonkers sale and I couldn’t say no. It’s turquoise for god’s sake.^

IMG_1723^We went to a wedding this weekend, it was beautiful^

IMG_1730^This is Felecia, she’s simply wonderful.^

IMG_1732^This is Sarah, we take goofy pictures.^

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^I love the #ABeautifulMess App.^

Speaking of A Beautiful Mess, I’ve decided to do their 30-Day-Self-Portrait-Challenge. Yes it’s narcissistic. No, I don’t really care (okay, I do a little. It’s pretty awkward actually).

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^1/30^

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^2/30 At least I can get creative with it.^

Okay, that’s it. No more pictures.

Enjoy your day!

Real Life, Real Talk.

I was planning a post about my Fall Bucket List today, but then life happened. Well actually, dairy happened. Which when you have an allergy to cows, or any food based allergy, kind of makes you stop in your tracks. Living with a food allergy changes your life, you have to be aware of everything that goes into your body. And I mean everything.

For those of you who don’t know my allergy story, I talk about it more here. It’s something I’ll be sharing more about, now that I have to change the way I cook and bake. I’ve also found some inspiration in other dairy-free blogs, so maybe there’s a little part of me that hopes to help someone with my story. Allergies are a tricky business and even though I watch a lot of Grey’s Anatomy I am not a doctor. I’m happy to share my experiences but if you think you have a food allergy it’s best to contact an allergist or your doctor so they can run some tests.

There’s another thing that I should clarify. I am allergic. Not lactose intolerant. They are two different things, and they have different symptoms. When I eat something with dairy in it sometimes it takes me up to two days to feel any symptoms. When I do I feel run-down, kind of like I have the flu, but without the fever. Other times I feel the effects almost immediately after eating, they are violent and painful and basically wipe me out for an entire day. This is what happened last night.

We hardly ever order out since it is so risky, but last night we decided to get pizza from the only pizza place that delivers and offers vegan cheese. I ordered my pizza and made my substitutions while crossing my fingers and making a wish that they would get it right. There are many things that make eating out beyond annoying and one of those is asking for ingredients to be left off or substituted on an order. I usually get a 75% accuracy rate across the board.

They didn’t get it right. When this happens I just have to weigh my options, decide how hard it would be to remove the offender or if it’s possible to pick around it. The offender in question was pesto sauce, I had substituted regular sauce but it came with pesto, something that is pretty hard to get around on a pizza. I decided to eat it anyway, since I had actually eaten it before and in my starving state could not recall any noticeable symptoms. Now I probably should have known better, pesto by most recipes, contains parmesan cheese. But I was delirious and like I said, I had eaten it before.

About 20 minutes later I started to feel sick to my stomach, which was my first warning sign. At 45 minutes my heart rate became irregular and I was extremely dizzy. Thanks to Grey’s I know that this is called anaphylaxis, and it’s no joke. I called the restaurant who confirmed that there was milk and cheese in the pesto (they also refunded my entire order) and then I started trying to calm my heart down. Honestly when I’m in the middle of an attack like that my body just kind of takes over and I don’t really know what I’m doing.

Last night was one of the worst reactions I’ve had. The nausea and abdominal pain didn’t leave until around 3 am, and when my alarm went off this morning I was exhausted. My body felt like it had just been in a rumble and even though I tried as hard as I could I had to stay home and rest. I don’t like calling into work, and this week was probably the worst timing, but I had to. I also had to miss my favorite class, and a lab. Luckily my professor, who also has a food allergy, completely understood. Mister was a great caretaker, as always when this type of thing happens, he’s always so supportive and tries his hardest to help me feel better. But really I spent whatever time I wasn’t sleeping watching day time talk shows. Did you know Ricki Lake is back? Love her!

But really I spent most of my day with this girl:

 

One thing about having a blog is that you can pick and choose which parts of your life you want to share with the internet. I had juggled sharing this type of experience, but it’s my real life and you guys deserve some real talk.

Thanks for reading.

 

We All Scream for Ice Cream…well, not anymore.

As promised, I have a few big announcements to make. I’ll make one today and one tomorrow. This one is kind of sad, for me. Not for you, so don’t worry. You see, apparently it’s common for your allergies to change as you grow, um, older. And that it’s common in your late 20’s to develop a new allergy or for an old allergy to change. Well, since I am now officially in my late 20’s (ouch) it seems I have become a statistic. Yes, I do believe I have a food allergy. To dairy.

Dude, dairy is in everything.

At least all the good foods.Cheese, Milk and yogurt are the obvious culprits. But chocolate, chips, bread, butter, sour cream, cheeseburgers, donuts and cupcakes, nachos, cheese fries, Alfredo and Stroganoff sauces, waffles and pancakes, and some cereals. I seem to find something new everyday. I could deal with all that, there are some fine substitutes out there for all those things. But then I realized. The worst one.

No Ice Cream.

WHHHHHYYYYYY?!?!?

Now there are some great Coconut substitutes, Trader Joe’s has a great one. But nothing beats real ice cream. Even then I thought, it’s going to be okay. This is easy, it’ll just be like going on a weird diet.

Wrong.

This is a substantial life change. I think it hit mister and me when we were out and decided to stop at a Greek restaurant for lunch. They have the best Gyros, and we were both so excited until I remembered, No Feta, No Tzatziki. I got a salad, with olive oil and gyro meat. And then I got a cocktail.

It hasn’t been easy, and it’s not going to be easy. But I’m about three solid weeks free of dairy and I feel amazing. I feel so good that I finally realize how long I’ve been sick. Really I’ve been feeling some symptoms for about a year, but they started getting increasingly worse 4-5 months ago and finally about 2 months ago I really took note and decided to change something.

I have yet to go to the doctor and get this confirmed. I have an appointment soon, and we’ll figure it out from there. Instead of immediately going to the doctor, I called my two best friends who have their own food allergies and asked for their opinions. They told me their experiences, and I took their advice. Plus, those tests are flipping expensive! I just wanted to have an idea of what it could be before I went in.

So there is one of the big announcements. I’ll make sure to talk about this more, and share some stories with you guys. For now, just watch this clip from Portlandia.

Allergy Pride.

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